I'm feeling better this evening. More hopeful anyway, though I don't know why. :P Or perhaps I'm just moving into numb as well.
I have a hard time reconciling ep4 Blaine with ep1 Blaine who sent his boyfriend off to NYC. Blaine is just so lost and broken now.
Stuff like this is part of why I'm leaning toward bipolar for him, because it is starting to really feel like there's more going on than just showface!Blaine versus vulnerable!Blaine. He's having so many extreme ups and downs along with the impulsive & self-destructive behaviour. Poor Blaine. As much as I do not in any way condone his behaviour, I feel mostly sympathy & concern for him right now.
It's weird how (this is at least true for me sometimes) it's easier to talk to a friend than your partner about some things. I don't know that Blaine is comfortable with being so not okay in front of Kurt. Particularly if he is still seeing New Kid Kurt. When he's feeling okay, he understands what NYC means to Kurt. That understanding is not enough to get him through the night, though. :S
The fact that Kurt didn't break up with him yet gives me a teeny tiny glimmer of hope
Me too. It's not much, but it's good maybe that Kurt didn't just break it off there and then? I like that he's taking time to think before he speaks or decides. (Kurt's power lies in his voice a lot of the time.) Someone on tumblr (can't remember who D:) wrote that Kurt may need time to process before he feels like he can talk to Blaine without hurting him. I like that idea. I do think Kurt is going to have to push Blaine to tell him what it did mean. Blaine has to face that, and Kurt needs to understand it well enough to accept it.
I did see that piece by sunandrainfic this morning. Mind you, this morning is a bit of a blur of too little sleep, too much sadness, and a bit of a hangover (I'm not proud of myself), so I need to reread it.
Chris and Darren are indeed amazing actors and so good to their fans (Darren's letter was amazing). I can see how both of them might be looking forward to developing their characters outside the relationship, though. I love both characters enough, I'm keen to see it however it goes. I do hope they will reunite as a couple at some stage this season, but the meantime will be good (if painful, because Blaine has some work to do). They both totally brought their A+++++ game to the episode (everyone did) so I hope they are both getting many kudos and not too much anger from their fans.
FWIW, I don't think there's anything at all wrong with engaging deeply with stories and their characters. Stories are a very fundamental thing for human beings. We understand out lives through narrative; it's good for our brains. If a story is making us feel & think this much, then its doing something right! :)
It's good to hear from you tonight! I was thinking of you earlier (and not just because you so kindly rec'ed my fic).
Me too Re: ep 4 well, I called that wrong...
I'm feeling better this evening. More hopeful anyway, though I don't know why. :P Or perhaps I'm just moving into numb as well.
I have a hard time reconciling ep4 Blaine with ep1 Blaine who sent his boyfriend off to NYC. Blaine is just so lost and broken now.
Stuff like this is part of why I'm leaning toward bipolar for him, because it is starting to really feel like there's more going on than just showface!Blaine versus vulnerable!Blaine. He's having so many extreme ups and downs along with the impulsive & self-destructive behaviour. Poor Blaine. As much as I do not in any way condone his behaviour, I feel mostly sympathy & concern for him right now.
It's weird how (this is at least true for me sometimes) it's easier to talk to a friend than your partner about some things. I don't know that Blaine is comfortable with being so not okay in front of Kurt. Particularly if he is still seeing New Kid Kurt. When he's feeling okay, he understands what NYC means to Kurt. That understanding is not enough to get him through the night, though. :S
The fact that Kurt didn't break up with him yet gives me a teeny tiny glimmer of hope
Me too. It's not much, but it's good maybe that Kurt didn't just break it off there and then? I like that he's taking time to think before he speaks or decides. (Kurt's power lies in his voice a lot of the time.) Someone on tumblr (can't remember who D:) wrote that Kurt may need time to process before he feels like he can talk to Blaine without hurting him. I like that idea. I do think Kurt is going to have to push Blaine to tell him what it did mean. Blaine has to face that, and Kurt needs to understand it well enough to accept it.
I did see that piece by sunandrainfic this morning. Mind you, this morning is a bit of a blur of too little sleep, too much sadness, and a bit of a hangover (I'm not proud of myself), so I need to reread it.
Chris and Darren are indeed amazing actors and so good to their fans (Darren's letter was amazing). I can see how both of them might be looking forward to developing their characters outside the relationship, though. I love both characters enough, I'm keen to see it however it goes. I do hope they will reunite as a couple at some stage this season, but the meantime will be good (if painful, because Blaine has some work to do). They both totally brought their A+++++ game to the episode (everyone did) so I hope they are both getting many kudos and not too much anger from their fans.
FWIW, I don't think there's anything at all wrong with engaging deeply with stories and their characters. Stories are a very fundamental thing for human beings. We understand out lives through narrative; it's good for our brains. If a story is making us feel & think this much, then its doing something right! :)
It's good to hear from you tonight! I was thinking of you earlier (and not just because you so kindly rec'ed my fic).